progress of pauline @pauline@myna.social

TUCSON, 1994 - Our protagonist is listening to “Alive” by Pearl Jam, doesn’t understand that the “she” in the first verse (mother) and the “she” in the second verse (lover) are presumptively different people and gets the same sick feeling occasioned by freaky stories on Usenet

@oulipien I will put out, without judgment, that “rim-blown flute” is also a taxonomy

@nicole Yeah you do!

The only Jeff Beck moment I actually ever got was also the only Antonioni moment I actually ever got. Rock on.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSJGEn4FDys

@nicole That is an old dark house!

@ada That _is_ interesting! To be fair, I totally have those moments of bad lighting/angles/brain chemicals where I think “Oh hell, surgery changed nothing 😭.” But that reaction, along with the happier “I’ve always looked this way and it’s good” reaction, seems connected to being unable to hold “old face” and “new face” as distinct simultaneous entities in my head.

Eight weeks post #ffs , no longer much swelling to speak of and nerve sensation making its slow return, but the most surprising thing about this mug has been the immediate and total cognitive overwrite of how I used to look. Unless my phone pops up with an alarming surprise from the photo library, it’s already very hard to recall that things were ever any other way.
#trans #transgender

@chrmi @rooster I just used this as a teaching aid for an 11yo girl who is going through some stuff.

Give him credit for “xenial” though, for a moment I thought us Xennials were being pandered to

Can’t believe he passed up the easy win of “queers over QAnon”

Esther Kinsky is my informant that London has mini tornados? Frequently? Had no idea God was this angry with Albion.

@carrideen I’m with you that Duolingo can be helpful as part of a balanced diet! I’m on it now because for a while I was doing Wanikani only and hit a different sort of wall trying to memorize thousands of independent contextless facts.

@carrideen The really scandalous thing is that when you’re tapping on kanji to build a sentence, Duolingo sometimes just flat-out vocalizes them wrong - speaks the onyomi when the structure requires kunyomi or vice versa. Immersion is one thing but randomly sometimes wrong immersion is a bad onsen to soak in.

@Oliviawerth @AlyAlyOutnFree In California too! “Atmospheric river.”

@Oliviawerth @AlyAlyOutnFree Happy Twelfth Night! The rain it raineth every day.

@vtobin Oh thank you kindly! 💛 That vermilion wall was irresistible.

You know the planets are lined up when #transappreciationfriday falls on #TwelfthNight.

I'm Pauline (she/her). I spent my youth getting kiln-fired in #Tucson, #Arizona, now in the #BayArea; used to be an academic in the humanities, now write code during the day and fiction in the off hours, also some songwriting and home recording with guitars, but there's this whole ongoing struggle to get my singing voice repitched.

My most remarkable life stories all involve other people, and one of the most amazing is that my oldest and dearest friend is also a trans woman. It's been something to figure this all out alongside her as an other half to her Gemini.

Fig.1: restaurant washroom selfie, Fig 2: some hot gender-bent flirtation from Twelfth Night (Viola dressed as Cesario is supposed to be a proxy for the Duke; Olivia has other ideas).

Appreciation to all!