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Eight weeks post #ffs , no longer much swelling to speak of and nerve sensation making its slow return, but the most surprising thing about this mug has been the immediate and total cognitive overwrite of how I used to look. Unless my phone pops up with an alarming surprise from the photo library, it’s already very hard to recall that things were ever any other way.
#trans #transgender
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@pauline@myna.social Interesting! I had such a very different experience. It was almost 12 months before I could stop seeing "old me" in the mirror when I looked. I thought my surgery had done basically nothing, despite the fact it very much had
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@ada That _is_ interesting! To be fair, I totally have those moments of bad lighting/angles/brain chemicals where I think “Oh hell, surgery changed nothing 😭.” But that reaction, along with the happier “I’ve always looked this way and it’s good” reaction, seems connected to being unable to hold “old face” and “new face” as distinct simultaneous entities in my head.
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@pauline@myna.social That describes my pre and post transition experience, but yeah, it's different with my before and after FFS experience.
It took me close to a year to accept that I wasn't seeing myself as other people saw me after FFS.
I wonder what it all means :)