I keep doing things for the last time with my current face. Last night I took it over to the Zen center for a final stint as Monday night monitor, then folded it up like a rakusu and put it aside.

Started pre-op probiotics this morning. The blueberry flavor is like eighties yogurt and the bacterial content makes me think of the sake fermented from shrine maidens' saliva.

#trans #ffs #zen #kuchikamizake #blueberries #shapeshiftingnarrativewithblueberries

@pauline, it’s a very strange feeling, isn’t it?

For me, it’s heightened every day for the past two weeks. By the time they wheel me into the operating room, I expect to be vibrating with all the kinetic fury of an enraged hornets’ nest.

I’ll say Yes to the Valium

@nicole Yes to the Valium, and the Xanax, and that weird alpha agonist transdermal patch they’re prescribing. Anything to bring our resonance frequencies down to the point where our faces don’t end up anti-aliased?