progress of pauline @pauline@myna.social

Sometimes, seeing dudes behaving in the world, I remember the awful sorry-not-sorry text to Der zürnenden Diana (https://www.oxfordlieder.co.uk/song/3003) and then think, what a bizarre time capsule Schubert was of his moment, absolutely anything that crossed the guy’s desk was at risk of getting immortalized. What were the odds of “Best Biedermeier Erotica 1820” being the thing to hang around?

I was googling for a pic of the Antikythera mechanism and it came out of my brain as "Ankylotheria device," which you don't need to try yourself because it's a big nada. No corroded gears, no crooked beasts! Pleistocene on the brain I guess.

https://www.reddit.com/r/pleistocene/comments/xcf5iz/an_ancylotherium_picking_some_ripe_and_juicy/

To tie it all together, I also haven't found any discussion anywhere of The Story of the Stone as a trans novel, which is bizarre to me and must mean a) I'm being too forward with my labels; b) East Asian studies/Redology is in a certain place; c) I'm still bad at searching JSTOR; d) any or all.

#litodons #queerlit #redology #infrastructuredisasterasheterosocialparadigm

It's a bit like Jane Austen in that material underpinnings are acknowledged but offstage - but also, instead of just sitting around owning land and collecting interest on bonds, the Jia patriarchs periodically get saddled with a ton of administrative work. This is a great opportunity for graft but no life of leisure.

tl;dr Infrastructure disasters matter to Bao-yu because they keep Bao-yu's dad out of the house for months on end, making proper space for poetry contests with girls in the garden.

#election adjacent?: yesterday I told a couple people how my day job now feels like staffing the dying Austro-Hungarian bureaucracy, and then thought about the bizarre role of the giant corrupt imperial bureaucracy in Dream of the Red Chamber/Story of the Stone. Which I love so much.

I keep doing things for the last time with my current face. Last night I took it over to the Zen center for a final stint as Monday night monitor, then folded it up like a rakusu and put it aside.

Started pre-op probiotics this morning. The blueberry flavor is like eighties yogurt and the bacterial content makes me think of the sake fermented from shrine maidens' saliva.

#trans #ffs #zen #kuchikamizake #blueberries #shapeshiftingnarrativewithblueberries

Most of the gaps in the #Mastodon self-hosting guide (https://docs.joinmastodon.org/user/run-your-own/) are easy to fill from context. I hit two gotchas while following the recipe:

1) You can't set up nginx before you generate your SSL certificate, because nginx will justifiably complain there's no certificate there. Instead run certbot standalone first: https://github.com/mastodon/documentation/pull/826#issuecomment-827558844

2) nginx will return nothing but 502s until you give it access to the mastodon user folder: https://lond.com.br/2018/07/13/running-a-mastodon-instance-using-archlinux.html#intermission-mastodon-directory-permissions

Had my last voice lesson of the year before intubation temporarily makes me sound like 85-year-old Elza Soares. Relearning how to sing has been one of the joys of this whole transition thing and I recommend it to absolutely anyone in such circumstances. #LGBTQ #Trans teachers are pretty great about offering sliding-scale lessons if you need them.