More importantly: I came away. Now I’m sitting at SFO with a glass of wine and a boarding pass.
https://sadbrowngirl.substack.com/p/the-logic-of-protection
"Protection is a desperate attempt to produce the veneer of trans inclusion as progress while avoiding the genuine challenge of letting trans people transition simply because that is what they want. The logic of protection is not new, but it is today proving its ultimate futility. It not only fails to stop the restriction of medical transition because it has no collective vision or demand, just a series of private individuals--
I'm a woman, so I'm treated like a woman, but I'm also punished like one when I challenge patriarchy, and so much moreso, because my existence itself is a challenge to patriarchy.
Femininity is both a sin and a vice in the context of patriarchy, so by embracing it, trans women have committed the ultimate sin and perversion.
Being trans is not the crime, femininity is.
I watch anime. I’ve been watching anime since there was anime to watch. These days, I’m usually bored by it (see, watching since there was anime to watch), but I persist because every once and so often I’ll find one that grips me, and then I’ll spend an entire weekend binging (and probably crying).
Six episodes in and #frierenbeyondjourneysend is feeling like one of these. We’ll see if it holds: they have 22 more episodes to screw it up.
I won’t get to sleep there until Tuesday night: my partner’s in Dallas for the eclipse, and I’ve been sentenced to dog-sitting.
Oh, woe is me. 🥰
Moving day! I woke up at 0400 to finish packing, lost the permanent marker (found it later in my bathroom sink 🤷♀️), and ended up labelling the last few boxes with an eyeliner brush and some premium soy sauce.
The apartment has good bones, but needs paint, spackle, and drywall repair—it’s pretty shabby looking. But, hey, it’s my own place for the first time since my 1L year of law school (the only other time I’ve ever lived alone)!
Started doodling nori while making my digital to do list and got distracted. She’s moved a bit but happy for the motivation to draw #sketch #dogsofmastodon
Happy TDoV, everyone.
Everyone’s journey is different; all are challenging. Being seen for who and what you are inside, especially by yourself, requires hard labor. Along the way, you will sweat and you will cry. So too will those around you who have known and loved you the most, because the only inevitabllity of transition is change. And change is hard, regardless of which side of it you are on.
My heart to yours and to all those around you who are doing the work to see and be seen. 😘💋💋💋
Okay, so more moving talk. I was planning to not have a television or projector setup in the new apartment, partly because background streaming is a mind killer, but also because I just want to get back into the habit of reading. (And also, also: one less gizmo to distract).
But.
But.
I have a Commodore 1084 CRT in the basement … 😳
🏳️⚧️ Proudly Trans
🌉 Bay Area
Product-Engineering Manager for a software product portfolio; former iOS dev; attorney (CA/IL); large-format photographer; marriage ministress; cinema nut; weeb; lifelong weird girl.
Lover of myths, legends, fairy tales, fantasies, and folklore; 6502 assembly aspirer; book hoarder; gaming nostalgist; gore-adverse, torture-adverse feminist horror film fan; food worshipper; Slack poet; ace-demi-recipro-crier; a total and complete mess.
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