progress of pauline @pauline@myna.social

Trans awareness 0: repair people come to the house, I'm "he" and "sir" despite having changed clothes and stuff

Trans awareness 1: hair gets longer, I do the voice work, I'm now "ma'am" and "miss" but the repair people also address me like I don't understand the functioning of my own house

Trans awareness n+1: something shifts and the repair people revert to addressing me like I know what I'm doing, which baffles me until I remember we just put up the pride flag

#TransAwarenessWeek

What happens when a collision of crisis cascades, what happens when a casket of cholera goes critical, brekekekex koax koax

36 hours out and God just punted on one of His last best chances to avert this

Mom says: "When you started this transition I was worried that someone was going to smash your face in, and now you're doing it to yourself!"

So I'm Pauline. I've written a couple volumes of #fiction, the last a counterfactual #novel starring a not-dead-at-25 #Keats in Italy. My diss at #Berkeley (where I persist in a job doing things to computers) was about the #modernist novel (#Joyce, #Woolf, #HenryJames) as #Romantic lyric, with help from #Wittgenstein and such.

I live with my excellent family in the #EastBay and mess with #guitars.

Also bound to post #trans stuff, including freakouts about the facial surgery I'm having in, um, two days, behind CWs if alarming or gross.

(#introduction to ease those awkward moments at the water cooler)

This case came into English through D.T. Suzuki, who rendered it, "Think not of good, think not of evil, but see what at
this moment thy own original face doth look like, which thou
hadst even prior to thy own birth."

Yeats, the big kook, loved Suzuki's essays and made this out of them. (This was in his late sixties, around the same time he submitted to a "Steinach operation," aka a vasectomy thought to increase rejuvenating hormones.)

60 hours till the operating room.

Mumonkan (The Gateless Gate) case 23. What's translated here (by Blyth) as "Original Self" is 本來 "original" plus 面目 "face," a phrase also in the Platform Sutra attributed to the Sixth Patriarch. Google wants to translate 本來面目 from modern Chinese as "true features" or "true colors."

OMG the Soylent is versioned. Do they patch it for vulnerabilities??

If the date on the flyleaf is accurate, the European war had just started or was just about to start. Either way, young Don's own country would have a couple more years in the Spartan position of standing by.

Young Don's notes on Thucydides are more philological, but he wrote "cf. Nazi Germany" next to the Corinthians warning the Lacedaemonians about the Athenian national character:

"Thus they toil on in trouble and danger all the days of their life... to them laborious occupation is less of a misfortune than the peace of a quiet life. To describe their character in a word, one might truly say that they were born into the world to take no rest themselves and to give none to others." [1.70]

Young Don's notes on the Oresteia:

Woman like man
night like day
tragedy like joy
fire + darkness

Eumenides: Orestes saved because matter is not blood. Cf. Aristotle's idea of form & matter.

Orestes goes mad: the charioteer image p. 261

Appearance & Reality, p. 67
Depends upon assumption that there's a dichotomy.
Ulysses, p. 69, again, 123