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Drank last night, so puffy today. This means lots of stares on the street. 😑

The tolerances for passing are so fine, all it takes is a bottle of wine the night before to push the needle to the wrong side of the divide.

Or sugar
Or an edible
Or carb loading
Or hormonal fluctuations

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Keep hydrated; do cardio; say no to ice cream; learn to live with it.

Showed up to movie night a little early. Killing time until I walk the last 350 feet.

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Someone was snickering about "pregnant person", and I as like. Dude. We use inclusive language all the time in math. There's literally an infinite number of positive numbers, and yet we still use "non-negatives", because we specifically want to include zero. It's the same fucking thing.

Just scheduled joint BA/BBL for next month.

Going to play the holidays on hard mode!!! 👾

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AT&T Long Lines Oak Hill Tower, San Jose, CA 2021.

This unusual Brutalist tower was part of the former AT&T terrestrial microwave network that once carried the bulk of US long distance telephone traffic. The (long since disconnected) horn antennas are too big and heavy to remove.

Too many pixels at flickr.com/photos/mattblaze/51

#photography

Started surgical prep electrolysis today, and yuuuup, that hurts exactly as much as you’d think it would. 🤣

Supposed to get easier as you go, which is good, because I’m going to be doing this every week for at least a year. 📆

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@nicole@myna.social It’s funny. I’m one of those people who has incredible difficulty naming their own feelings, but anything involving harm to an animal triggers immediate and overwhelming emotions with perfect clarity.

I have strong anecdotal evidence that the same was true for my maternal uncles and grandfather.

It’s always been like this for me, but I feel like HRT dialed it up another couple of notches to the point of near absurdity.

Is crying on demand a useful party trick?

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Here's what I did with my weekend. Still some finishing to do tomorrow, but it's coming together.

I'm really pleased with how the laser etching came out on the sleeves and shoulders (it took a lot of work, please clap).

#StarTrek #StarTrekSNW #StarTrekCostume #StarTrekCosplay

Yeah, so a fictional robot dog died in an anime today, and I spent 10 minutes sobbing about it, 20 minutes fixing my makeup, and an hour holding Chibi tightly to my chest. 🤷‍♀️

Chibi’s like, “the bleep’s wrong with you, woman?”

You might spend the first few years of your transition trying to convince the people around you that, somehow, you’ve materially changed; once they realize that this is true, you can then pivot to trying to convince them that you’re the same person.

Strictly speaking, neither are true.

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TIL I need to recalibrate my JPY to USD heuristic. I’ve been using 100:1 for 30 years, but I knew the Japanese economy has been sluggish for at least that long.

The conversion today is 150:1.

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Has anyone tried the new Activity Pub plugin for Wordpress?

It’s out of beta now.

I have a Wordpress site (which I need as an author) and a Mastodon instance (which I need because I am a control freak).

If Activity Pub works as it should, I won’t need both — but we can’t get Activity Pub to work on a Wordpress site.

Has anyone tried this?

I will trade legal analysis for technical help. (Fediverse economics)

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It’s October, so I’m squirreled up with a small press collection of creepy stories, The Faces at Your Shoulder.

The first story turns out to be an even more-Lovecraftian spin on Campbell’s Who Goes There? (i.e., The Thing). It’s set at the tail end of the Gold Rush, but, other than its setting, it’s derivative as all get-out.

Doesn’t matter: the literary equivalent of a Spooky Sounds CD is exactly what I was looking for. 🎃

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Weird terrible transfem hrt database study - me gesticulating wildly 

ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/

This is most absurd clinical findings ive seen regarding trans females. It states they prescribed "oral estradiol" starting at 2mg and increasing in dose over a year to try and achieve levels above 100 pg/ml with an aim towards monotherapy between 2008 and 2018 looking at 184 trans women in their clinic.

Looking at their scatter chart they state 1 patient achieved about 90 pg/ml on 1mg oral, 2 patients achieved over 100 pg/ml on 2mg oral, and 21 achieved over 100 pg/ml on 4 mg oral.

For these results to be at all useful in terms of monotherapy they need to have been done at trough level (ie 24 hours after the last dose) as you need to keep your estradiol level above a set amount to manage such a feat.

The issue? a patient on 1mg oral will not see estradiol levels above 25 pg/ml at peak, a patient on 2mg oral will not see estradiol levels above 50 pg/ml at peak, and 4mg oral will only break 100 pg/ml at peak at 6-8 hours and then crash below 40 pg/ml after 24 hours.

So whats going on? well a minority of their patients who somehow magically achieved the impossible, as usual were doing what trans girls in the US do all the time, they take the medication they're given and then took it sublingually (and likely broke up their doses through the day) because you get far higher levels that last longer that way.

The only other explanation is these patients had their estradiol levels tested incorrectly either not at trough or there was an aberration in the test.

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Thirteen Women (1932)

Myrna Loy portrays Ursula, an embittered woman of Indian/Japanese descent, dead set on the destruction of the members of a sorority who prevented her from gaining acceptance in white society in her youth. She has, as her weapon, the Power of Suggestion.

If it weren’t for Ursula’s ongoing attempts to outright murder one of her tormentor’s children, her actions might be read as comeuppance: childhood alone can not excuse the life-destroying racism of the privileged elite.

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Murders in the Zoo (1933).

Sadistic, possessive, wealthy zoo collector delights in ghoulishly dispatching his wife’s paramours.

Hi jinx ensue!

Once the grisly murders have played out, prepare yourself for a history lesson on why the SPCA is a presence on movie sets today.

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SwiftUI pros: How do I make a List with style .insetGrouped fit to the device's readableContentGuide?

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Doctor X (1932).

I’ll watch anything shot in two-strip technicolor. The palette—peach and green—makes a fever dream of everything.

We begin with a police tour of a gallery of scientist suspects, any of which might be a lunatic serial killer. But which one? (They’re all quite mad).

The sprawling sets are absolutely glorious—perfect for stalking stranglers and shadow play.

And comedy; because, at heart, this is a goofy movie, full of pranks and fools.

❤️❤️❤️💔

In Orlando, my best friend and I snuck into a Shul celebration. It’s the first time I’ve been to a Jewish anything since I got kicked out of temple as a kid. Returning as a 6’ trans woman was kind of fun. Especially the part where the rabbi sorted the crowd by gender, and all of a sudden my friend and I were on opposite sides of the room. Something about the experience made me recognize that had I not been fighting gender issues my whole life, I might have actually folded in with this stuff.

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Basic models of flocking behavior are controlled by three simple rules: 1) separation: avoid crowding neighbours (short range repulsion); 2) alignment: steer towards average heading of neighbors; 3) cohesion: steer towards average position of neighbors (long range attraction). With these three simple rules, the flock moves in an extremely realistic way.